Hi. My name is Mom.

Insomnia you old friend, you.  One of my favorite things is to sit and enjoy the silence of my home after everyone else has gone to bed.  You can usually find me binge watching a TV show, and right now it’s a hot 90’s hit called ER.  So, after I checked that off my mental to do list tonight I laid down in bed at a really reasonable time hoping to count my sheep and drift off.  Here I sit 20ish minutes later typing to whoever’s eyes happen to fall upon this and hoping to get down everything that just flew through my head in that short amount of time. {I also realized I forgot to take out my contacts, so again, here we are.}

Hi.  My name is Mom.  No.  Obviously that is not my given or legal name but you already knew this.  It’s probably what I respond best to though, especially if you whine or yell it at me.  My kids truly fill my every waking moment, even when I’m not with them I’m wondering what their doing or if they are driving their current care giver as nuts as they drive me. Usually upon picking them up or coming home I ask how it went and hear how great they were.  WHAT!  I appreciate their calm and collectiveness for you but why can’t this be the regular for me.  Self talk: “Because they are toddlers and thats how the universe works, Jessica.”  It is insanely hard being a parent.  Have I said that before?  I must have because I think it about 50 times a day.  I also tell it to close friends, especially to those who are parents themselves, on the regular…  “Isn’t parenting so fun?!”  and “Aren’t you just ready to have kids RIGHT NOW?” to those who don’t and witness one of my girls throw a tantrum straight from hell in front of them.

The memory just from today that made me want to sit down and write this is my 3 year old flipping backwards off a swing and my 1 year old laughing at her while she screamed.  I’m still laughing about it.  (She was fine, just terrified.)  They make you scared and happy all at the same time.  Parenthood in one word to me is ’emotional.’ I don’t mean that in a bad way either.  Emotions are a good thing, a great thing really and if you like going from happy, to mad, maybe to sad, and back to happy again… parenting is for you my friend!

Becoming a mom has made me grow in so many ways and not just as a parent.  It changes everything.  Why does it change us?  It’s not just about you taking care of you anymore, it can (and I think should)  give you some serious hopes and dreams.  I was never really a dreamer before.  I kind of lived in the now.  As in I want this now so I’m getting it now or lets go there now and we probably did.  I still desire to live in the now but for reasons of being present.  I also have goals for myself, my family, and the role I play.  Of course one of those goals for our kids revolve around them always feeling secure and loved along with setting them up for success in all aspects of life.  Sometimes I really feel like I’m screwing it up because lets remember… Parenting.Is.Hard.  It’s 100% true when you hear ‘the days are long but the years are short.’  I have no idea how almost 4 years ago we were given the gift of our first daughter.

So, if you find yourself in the trenches of parenthood *high five* Choose your battles wisely.  Love your kids the best you know how.  Thank your spouse, significant other, or support system immensely.  Always be kind to yourself!

 

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Author: Jessica Omdalen

Stay at home mom and wife with a passion for writing, loving my family, and just doing life!

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